Learning to deal...

I must admit, I have never been good at being alone. Especially in a two story house at night. I am probably the most paranoid person you will come by.
But over the last couple of weeks I am learning to branch out of my shell and learning to live on my own.
A month ago, you would have never caught me talking to others wives, or exploring out to meetings and get togethers with the FRG especially without someone with me. But now I see it as a very important part of being a Navy wife, one to keep my sanity and two to learn all I can about my husband's ship. I have loved reading about the ship lately, even finding pictures of the past ships. I love sending them to my husband, so he remembers he is making history.
The more I branch out and learn about the Navy the more I swell with pride when I think of seeing the ship pull into port or seeing my husband walk to me in his uniform. I don't know that the American flag has ever meant so much to me.
I have also learned in the past couple of weeks, that if you let the drama of the military wife circle into your life, it can be just as bad as high school. Which is something that shouldn't have to be a part of your life, especially when prepping for deployment. But it's true that not everyone you come across, will be your best friend. I do believe in being nice to everyone, because you never know when your smile or a kind word will change someones day or mood, even if it is someone you don't necessarily care for. Now going out of your way and kissing butt is something I am not for...fake. I don't believe in that. Especially just to get something you want such as a promotion, lead part, or new position. I believe you work hard for those things, but you need to be who you are and learn you are going to disagree with people, that's just a part of life. For me that's difficult, because I had always been on that had to have everyone liking me, and in no time, me trying to please everyone turned me into a doormat...ever happened to you?
Just within a couple of weeks I have made some great friends, something I didn't think I would find here. Some ladies I'm sure I will never forget. It's funny the lessons you can learn from people in such a short amount of time. It's also funny how today people judge you at the drop of a hat, they hear one thing you say, catch you on a bad day, or in a horrible mood, and automatically put a label on you as if they know you or what has happened in your past.
Moving from home has been a shock, one I never expected to go through, my husband joining the military threw us all for a loop, especially since we were a few months away from moving to college together. It has been a scary, undefined, twisty, fun, and adventurous roller coaster ride! One that I wouldn't trade for anything! As much as I miss my family, and I do..trust me my heart aches for them all everyday. I have learned how lucky I am to have a man in my life that loves me the way he does, still looks at me like we were 17 again! And a man that loves his country just as much, he would sacrifice his life for his country! And even though I understand I am not the first priority now, in his heart I know I am. It's been tough but I love my life, never though I would be the one to say that, but the past few weeks, I just do!! For the first time in a long time I am truly happy and very blessed!